BELLY LOVE
It took me nearly 5 years after starting my own S Factor Journey to be able to look at and touch my own belly and feel love and gratitude.
Why so long?
Like many women, I spent DECADES loathing this part of my body. Fortunatley, (probably due to awesome hormones) I was a little more forgiving after each pregnancy. I mean....I was HUGE! and I had made a human being after all....so with that I gave myself a little slack.
However, the inner critic returned. I remember talking to my OB/GYN about it. "what about this?" I said grabbing a handful of my belly. He said "THAT is your badge of honor and it is beautiful"....sadly he retired....
Just recently I have put on a few lbs. Yes, I have certainly started the mid life decent into what feels like some sort of hormonal collapse. I will be 50 this year and haven't had a period in months...night sweats, hot flashes...some of you know the drill. Good times!
Yet, I actually feel pretty ok with it. I think if I were in my 30's I would have a total breakdown and retuned to my "hyper-vigilant-eating-disorder/over-exercising-is-a-good-thing" mind state and start obsessing over all of it.
All I know is today a still have a little "fluff" and I am not only fine with it, I love it. I can run my hand over my tummy and think "girl, you have been through A LOT, thank you for protecting me, I love you"
